Anyway, that wasn't the point of this post. It's more that my brother responded "so you're being a slacker" or something along those lines. And I realized he's right. I am slacking. I lack motivation of any sort. I told my family after I graduated high school I lacked motivation, and I went through the motions in college. Granted I did well in the classroom, and took a couple leadership roles, but nothing that pushed me. People say that you can seek out challenge, but I haven't ever really sought it out. Is keepin myself busy, so I don't have free time a challenge? I don't really think so. I'm so used to things working themselves out, w/o my having to work for them. My junior year of high school would be a good example. I bleh off my junior thesis (which counts for maybe a quarter or your grade for english and American history for the year). I got 500/1000 on both the progress checks, but I still somehow got a C on the these, and my class rank only dropped two places in the process.
So, now, here I am, a bum, living in my parents home. I'm not working, and I'm only sort of looking for a job. I keep expecting something to fall into my lap, as it has in the past. Looks like reality has caught up with me . . .