November 13th, 2009

buzzed, B&W

Writer's Block

I wrote before about how difficult it is to write every day.  Some days are easier than others, in that I want to write, that I have thoughts I want to put to the page / screen.  Today is not one of those days.  I did some stuff after work (stopped at the Holland 300 reception and gambled a bit), and then forced myself to come home since I knew I still had to write.  I've tried and forced myself to write, or at least brainstorm ideas to write, but instead I've been putzing around, avoiding the writing.  I watched the rest of the UC-WVU football game, stalled on Facebook, went through my Google Reader feeds, did email, etc.

I'm a little surprised with how hard it has been to write everyday, and I imagine it's only going to get harder.  While I keep jotting little notes and things down, I'm not sure I want to write about any of them.  So, I have a plethora of topics, but none that I really feel like developing.  This is not a good sign where there are still 17 days of writing left.  On the bright side though, Turkey Day (a.k.a Elf Day, a.k.a Egg Fest) should provide a fair amount of fonder for the last week or so, whether it be reminiscing about old times, thoughts about friendships, distance, and time, or just the ridiculousness of 5 dozen deviled eggs.

Of course, I still need to get there, and that's still a good dozen days out.  The low hanging fruit has been picked, and now we get to the part where this is work.  It's always been a commitment - I've made the effort to write before going out, while I'm out, or dedicated time specifically to writing.  Now, as the ideas / topics become sparser, I have to work harder.  I also have vague ideas of things I do want to write - whether they be reflective pieces, essays, opinions, etc, but for some reason they're not fleshing out quite the way I imagine them in my mind.

I think I'm going to have to dedicate some time this weekend to writing, and forcing myself to flesh out some of these ideas.  I may not get a backlog of complete entries, but I'll have stronger foundations to write from, not just a few clips and phrases.