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Looking back over the last few weeks, I feel like I've been changing. While I realize we all change, it seems that I've changed more quickly than I usually do, or maybe I'm just more aware of it. I think when I first got to Helena, I was much more social than I usually am, and came to expect to hang out with people. Now, I feel like I'm starting to become more independent, more of a loner again, not hanging out with people as much as I used to, or maybe I'm just hanging out with more of a diverse group, changing to the social butterfly that I used to be.

I think the biggest change is that I used to spend a ton of time with Kelly. I've been joking that if she took the other position in my office next year and I stayed on, I'd go nuts because I think it'd be too much time together; there's a part of me that wonders what kept me from going nuts when I was spending tons of time with her. I mean, I don't ever remember spending that much time with anyone, mainly because I really did (do??) value my time alone.

I think recently, I've really upped my "me time" and spend a lot of time hanging out with different people in smaller doses, rather than one person for a huge dose (note I didn't say over-dose).

It's interesting how relationships seem to ebb and flow, and it's okay . . . it's neither good nor bad, just different . . .

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